a young man's world , sadly a mad scientist protege

hey u

2006-04-16T09:05:00.000+08:00

hey guys sorry 4 the late entry , things have happen n i dont wish to tell u , all i can say dat im damn happy...heeheeh...after so long i accomplished my top goal...hahahakz...go figure dat urself..ok dat all...kinda lazy to blog...wahahahakz..

~dis is captain haq signing off...~

haizzzz sigghhhh

2006-04-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

fear , doubt n uncertainty , dat wat im facing now...........................just.......

~dis is captain haq signing off...~

awww

2006-04-02T09:48:00.000+08:00

awww , ytd was fun , went out wif her , it was just sweet , the whole thing , of coz woman will be woman , fashionably late , hahahaha. Met her at AMK mrt station , den we took the train towards City Hall and went to Marina Square , as usual , im being the bobo shooter , took the wrong exit n had to turn 1 bigggggggggggggggg freaking round , hahahahaha but we reach it in 1 piece , went to Liang Seng to get my gi n my belt BUT i bouhgt the wrong one but my mom goin altered it here n dere . Then we went to watch Ice Age 2 , damn funny...hahahaha...had a good laugh

The most romantic cum special moment is when she n me sat at esplanade n talk , i gave her my badge n told her to keep it n see it as a guide to be a good leader , she didnt want to take it but i close her hands n thrust it back saying she shud safeguard it for me ,after dat she gave me a sourvenir and it was a necklace , i wore it she help tie it and den she put her head on my shoulder...wat a moment...dat all folks

~dis is captain haq signing off...~

ehmmm

2006-03-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

dis is how i feel

~I felt ur love burn thru and ard me
surround me wif bright light ,
engulfing me , my very being
it burn so bright dat it makes the darkness disappear
but at the same time it kill the dwindling light inside me
then a miracle happen , u manage to reignite dat light
u kept it burning strong , protecting it from
water and wind
therefore u renewed it~

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

2006-03-10T06:54:00.000+08:00

'he doesnt need to know' nuff said...WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHKZ

2006-03-10T06:51:00.000+08:00

Ke mana saja kau berlari bersembunyi.. Ku tahu cintamu padaku teguh..takku peduli cara dan tingkah lakumu Kerna ku takkan pergi Jauh dari sisimu Dengarlah Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu.Kan kubina sebuah singgahsana untukmu berlindung dari hujan basah pabila malam ku termimpikan wajahmu takkan jiwa ragaku berakhir nikmatnya dengarlah kasih Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

here y

2006-03-06T06:40:00.000+08:00

ok it early in the morning n i have nth better to do , i been very tired n stuff as i found dat i been losing my appetite and my slp...even i slp i begin to lose energy and i wake up feeling tired n sore....imagine i feel like dis everyday , i can get pissed easily n get blow my head off in an instance so i apologize 1st to u all if i scream n shout at u...fuck...my life is like hell rite now wif so much work to do...not just only sch work but council work too...i gotta train the new batch alot of stuff n i got my own work to do at the same time....dat fucking Tong isnt giving us much space to manuerve either , always keep bugging us to work for her n wat do we get in return....HER STUPID FUCKING CRAP!...i wish i can just kill her...note to someone...u piss her off again...i find u...u shud noe who are u...coz im fed up n im tired n im stress out by ALOT of things...one of it is u...

i feel da i need u more den ever now dear...im afraid i break down bad dis time...so pls...help me...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

weeee

2006-03-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

hey guys wat up...finally back to write smth...on aidah's request...kept bugging me to update my blog...wat so special abt my blog dear??...we talk on the phone almost every day...u shud noe wat goin on in my life wat...hahahaha...kk since she bugged me...i shall write...let see...all this while...i been working my ass off writing reports , planning for the training and gathering ideas for our investiture...so far we come up wif a theme of Ancient Japan...wheee...so i have to teach some of my members to make fake samurai swords...futher more...me n my frens gonna play 2 songs...3 if can...not to sure wat songs but 'scotty doesnt noe' is one of them as it is BB SC theme song...hahaha...ok...sad to say...im stepping down in less den 5 mths n in less den 2 mths i be goin for my attachment...whee...finally i have some income...hahahah...but still i have alot to prepare for my council...i still got to train the potential chairman of cca for the council...dis is all to u guys , the old birds n new birds...we are a big happy family , so no matter wat , we will stick together , against all odds and we must uphold the CRAZY NAME OF BB SC as we are the craziest Sons of bitches ever in all the 5 campus...so guys...DO ME PROUD!...hahahah...
Another note to the old bird...i love u guys , each n evey1 of u as u guys stood by me when im in need n u guys are like brothers n sisters dat i nvr had..i really love u guys n hope we keep in contact...

ok...in a mths time , i be goin for my grading , getting my brown belt...wheee...2nd highest belt...let hope i got...den maybe i got for black belt n den instructor n teach chanbara as a hobby...but den wat i head from wayne is dat we must go to japan to learn under the tutelage of sensei shirai...ehmm...see how la...hahah...definitely rinto want to get dat instuctor belt coz he really want to teach chanbara...be prepared rinto to get ur head knocked off by me!!...hahahaha
last but not least...if u r reading dis dear...hope u r happy hehhehehe...love u muakcss

~dis is capt haq signing off..~

my newwwww stuffs!

2006-01-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

MY EQUIPEMENT , top , Kodachi (shortsword), middle ,Choken(longsword) , Bottom , Men ( face mask)

i finally got my equipment , even tho is 2nd hand but i have to thank my mom for it...she decided to buy it for me...phew...wat a life saver...now i have my own men ( face mask) , kodachi ( sword short) and my personal favourite , choken ( long sword)...chanbara has been fun , made alot of new frens , sam , wayne , parry , darryl , doris , ryoji , daigo and a few more students , there dis german guy but he had to leave next week , sad sad, sparred wif him n i won...lol...well..let see wat happen...the whole of last week , i didnt step inside my class room at all , monday , the 16th , was the 1st day of sch n orientation programme n i was helping the teachers , 17th also orientation , den 18th , i had to go to dover for a briefing which lasted for 2 FUCKING MINUTES n the journey from Woodlands to Dover was 45 FUCKING MINUTES...WATS THE DEAL..k den on thursday , 19th , i had duty at dover for whole day , me , alan n silin decided to go back to sch at 3 , rite after the performance , so we took a trip down to dover sc room , n give back their blazer n guess wat , decided to sit down n play charom wif dino n kenneth , half way thru the game , liyana from ct pop in , damn surprise...lol...we chat n stuff...ok on to friday , 20th , CCA fair , help out at the game booth , got some sales n the rest of the stuff will be donated to salvation army , i bought 1 pink pillow , wif baby mickey n minnie drawings , to me it 2 in 1 ting , 1 , i donate my money to the charity n 2 , it for her...

ok den in the afternoon , i went out wif her , didnt do much , she had to go back to sch , for tc , didnt mind , as long i get to spend some time wif her , im glad...dis is where it get messed up...wont tell u wt happen...k continueing wif the story , me n her go ard the market to look for a duffel back, went to 2 shop n go 1 , manage to bargain n got it at a lower price n now im using the bag as my sch bag n training bag...ok dat all for dis week of shit...stay tune for next week of shit...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

nuff said

2006-01-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

i feel like a jerk....'nuff said'

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

lol

2006-01-16T19:06:00.000+08:00

OK IM OFFICIALLY A MEMBER OF TAKUSHIN KAN....lol...i shud have start chanbara way earlier den dis...damn the sports rock , better than soccer , better than wat not , infact it's better den anything esle , apart from Kendo as chanbara came from kenda..i really had fun wif th sports but its rough n plus u gotta have guts to get beaten up by ur peers n instructors , i love to fight wif Wayne ( sensei) , Darrly ( asst sensei) , Samuel ( asst sensei) and Parry (asst sensei) , they always have smth to teach me when i did smth wrong , but when u fight with them , prepare to get whacked like some stupid son of a bitch , n it hurts!! . i show u the pics when i buy the equipment , Men ( face shield) , Kodachi ( short sword) and Choken ( long sword) . i love the choken , my fav weapon of all time , hahaha , doris and rinto nickname me the samurai n it nly the 2nd lesson!!!...hahaha...i tink i move too much as a samurai...wahahahak..i love it...dear , when i done wf training , my sword is ur shield , i will protect u wif my life , oh ya dear , the talk we had , it nice , i mean wat i say , dat i promise u...we will go the distance kay...trust me...

ok...now i cant wait to get my damn money from the bank...HEY ASSHOLE, WHERE MY MONEY!!!...coz of u..i cant buy my equipement u noe!!...i cant wait to get my hands on them then u see how much of a samurai i am...wahahhaahkz....no no it not deprived childhood , i take dis lesson is for self defense purpose , if my life or any1 i care life is threaten , at least we have a figthing chance coz of my training...n dear , my sword n i will answer to u only , no one else kay...
dis is nice man...I WANT MY EQUIPMENT NOW!!! hahaha......rinto , once i have my equpiment , we go training together at some place quiet , how dat sound bro??...cool? alrite...

p.s... dear if u reading dis , miss u, muacks!!

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

....

2006-01-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

lies all lies , im lying to myself abt everything in my life , too good to be true....nuff said

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

hey to myself

2006-01-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

hey , to myself , a young man trying to fall aslp but cant due to some forsaken reason , short term , i had way too much slp but dat just 1 of the reasons , plenty more to go...i feel dat everything is wrong , everything , just dat i cant put my finger on it , i dont noe but my world seem too good to be true , it like wat i dreamt abt but it doesnt need to be false but does it need to be true?.. am i losing sight of myself or im straying too far from my true path or both? i found my princess or have i ? i have found my path to my career or have i ? is my path laid out infront of me like i planned it or it is not ? im tyring to be honest to myself but i always found myself wif my back to the corner , alone n in the dark , but i like it? the alone n in the dark thingie , i seem to be enjoying it or am i? y im trying to put a happy face while i noe dat im not happy myself...

can i shed my physical form just to find the answers to my unanswered questions or i need to dig deeper or let nature take it course just like dahlia says? so many choices so little time , im not trying to be a grown up but i got 3 more mths or so b4 i start working for my IA or industrial attachment...so little time , in 5 mths time i be 19 , another 2 yrs i be 21 , den i be in the adult world even tho im studying...my oh my how time flies...well...let hope my relationship last long n god bless me...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

scream n shout abt it

2006-01-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

i always flirt wif death , i cud kill but i dont care abt it , i can face ur threats , stand up tall n scream abt it , i tink im on another world wif u , or im on another planet wif u , u always get under my skin , i dont find dat irritating , u always play to win , i dont need rehabilitating , i still tink im on another world n another planet wif u ....another girl , another planet...space shuttle in my blood n deres nth i can do abt it , long journey wears me out ,oh god u noe we wont live wifout it....after a long n hard tht...i let go..........

~dis is capt haq sigining off...~

haq was here

2006-01-03T19:20:00.000+08:00

well , sch starting in 2 weeks time , sad to see all my sec sch n poly n jc frens goin to sch while im at home slacking...awwww...sorry guys...i rest for u ok!!..HAHAHAHHAKZ*evil luffter*...anyway...finally...im like happy??...hahahakz , had talks wif her n she say it ok, im not hurting her in anyway , i felt guilty not to tell her b4 but now i did , i felt at ease , now she noes n i feel dat i have nth to hold me back , dont worry sweety , u are not the one holding me back , its me , its me , its me n my guilt n my brain n my heart . But , atleast i have u as a best fren , n dat wat counts the most , we still tight aite...haahha...new year came as a surprise , i nvr lose anything but i gain 2 stuff , 1 is her n the other is her , confuse yet...ur prob...well...just a wanna say , let take it slow , n see where it goes n have fun along the way , be sure to have ups n downs n everywhere around...still need to talk abt compromise n sacrifices , damn gotta make a list...lol...im putting my SC work into my relationship...wahhahaa watever...hahah

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

hahahahahahahahaahah

2005-12-17T02:03:00.000+08:00

gee....im blogging in the middle of the nite...dat the 1st...blogging ok la...but the question is...wtf im doin up in the middle of the nite....haha..answer is simple , im watching tv...hahha...n stoning as per normal...my biological clock gone wrong...i slp at 8 pm each day n woke up 10 , 10 plus?...den i cant slp till 3 maybe 4...gr8 huh...each nite i endure hunger , thrist and slpiness but 1 thing dat hard to endure , take all my willing power is not to msg her...it takes all my energy n will power not to touch my hp n msg her...

hahaha...hahaha...i must be goin crazy...haha..ohhh ya...u owe me a kiss princess...i maintain my GPA..3.0000...clean , not even 1 digit tainted it...hahhaa...alrite finally getting slpy...goin off to bed...c ya

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

my life

2005-12-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

i dunno , where me n her goin , here or dere or anywhere...i update dis blog soon...smth emergency just crop up...gtg...bb...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

ehmmmm

2005-12-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

ehmmm...life...it sucks...in every point of view...but we gotta make do
ehmmm...band has disbanded so as of 7th dec 2006 , common agony aint no more
ehmmm...as of ytd , im the new vocalist for my old band...hahaha...cool...dat means i need to sing properly
ehmmm...project almost done but i got 2 more to go so cant celebrate yet...shit...waahahhakz
ehmmm...dat all folks...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

i wanna go home to u.....

2005-12-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

Another summer day is come and gone away in Paris and Rome but I wanna go home mmmmmmmm .Maybe surrounded by a million people i still feel all alone i just wanna go home Oh I miss you, you know .And Ive been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you each one a line or two ' Im fine baby, how are you ? ' well I would send them but I know that its just not enough my words were cold and flat and you deserve more than that .Another aeroplane ,another sunny place Im lucky I know but I wanna go home Mmmm .I have got to go home, let me go home ,Im just too far from where you are ,I wanna come home.

And I feel just like Im living someone elses life .Its like I just stepped outside when everything was going right .And I know just why you could not come along with me but this was not your dream but you always believe in me .Another winter day has come and gone away and even Paris and Rome and I wanna go home ,let me go home .And Im surrounded by a million people I still feel alone oh , let go home oh , I miss you, you know , Let me go home .I have had my run Baby , Im done I gotta go home ,Let me go home .It will all right ,I will be home tonight ,Im coming back home.....

I wanna go home to u , forever n a day , for the rest of eternity , let me go home to u , pls...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

let see...

2005-12-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

let see....im losing alot of stuff , my slp , my mind , my sanity , my everything. God wat happening to me, im tired but i cant slp , my mind needs to rest but i cant stop thinking , my need to do work has to stop but i kept goin , i need to rest but i got so much to do so so so much...im just a shadow of the former self , a shell wif no soul , just a living vegetable...help me...dear god , help me , put me out of my misery , lighten my load , my shoulders feels heavy...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

aint young anymore

2005-12-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

well..let start dis off...DIS MTH OF DEC SUCK...actually the whole year but who cares huh...im not getting any younger n i found dat i rather think like an adult more often den a teenager...i hate being a teenager...coz i can accept the responsibilites when i have done something wrong and my parents look at me as an adult not a fucking teenager or a kid...which leads to another thing being an adult...finding ur future wife...well...i found her already...getting well...u shud noe who im talking abt ok...haha..im still waiting patiencely as ever , taking each n every other day as per normal , taking care of her from afar , bothering over her , worrying abt her...trust me , it all worth it...i dont need to be paid for dis, n if i ever receive payment , i reject it coz it smthing dat comes from the heart n soul , the 2 essential stuff dat mould n shape u to who u are...she did some shaping on me alrite, 1st was being a man n dat was enuff as she already done more by sticking by my side. Being an adult , working , now dat impt, work , very impt stuff to me , i want to get good educations which mean studying my ass off till poly n get my dip on CPT den i work in a chemical company or A*STAR as a researcher n den continue wif my degree but doin part-time , hopefully wif dat i can support my future wife n future children , damn, i still have to go thry wif NS but nvm, i want to be in the army , i miss the feeling of being tortured ,hahaha , miss those days. Maybe i sign on , maybe i wont , 2 dreams n ambition for me , 1 , being a researcher n 2 being a major or atleast a 2nd leftenant in the singapore arm forces. So dat y i want to be an adult...to be much more better den a teenager...P.S Hunz , love ya

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

cant smile wifout u

2005-11-29T11:40:00.000+08:00

i care so much for her...i bothered wat she say n wt she tinks...i will scold her if i found dat the stuff she doin is wrong...u noe y...coz i care n bother...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

the marines hymn

2005-11-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

The Marines Hymn

From the halls of Montezuma
To the shores of Tripoli
We fight out country's battle
In the air , on land , and sea
First to fight for the right and freedom
And to keep our honor clean,
We are proud to claim the title
Of United States Marines

Our flag's unfurl'd to every breeze
From dawn to setting sun;
We have founght in every clime
and place
Where we could take a gun
In the snow of far-off northern lands
And in the sunny tropic scenes
You will always find us on the job
The United States Marines

The United States Marines
Here's health to you and to our corp
Which we are proud to serve
In many strive we've fought for life
And never lost our nerve
If the Army and Navy
Ever gaze on Heaven's scenes
They will find the streets
are guarded
By The United States Marines

The United States Marines are the toughest sons of bitches ever...their training is nothing compared to ours...it makes hell look like a walk in the park...they trained in all kind of warfare and weaponary....500 years of history...UNITED STATES MARINES , FIRST TO FIGHT , SEMPER FIDELIS!!!...OOUUHAAAAHHH

haiizz

2005-11-10T06:18:00.000+08:00

Sitting here alone thinking it thru trying to convince myself dat im not losing u or can u just forget the things i said i was angry at dat time but now i cleared my heard it was so strong where did it all go wrong. So tell me y im swimming against the tide n im praying for a life line coz im losing u so tell me y u dont care enuff to try are u giving up dis fight? i cant stand , wont stand losing u. U dont have to say a words it in ur eyes wat can i do to convince u we need more time n i noe i may have made a few mistakes but losing u is just so hard for me to take. So tell me wat to say becoz i need a chance to change n i wont let u walk away.....

Look at me up in the sky watch the world just pass me by i noe my feelings gave me away it happening more everyda , loving u cud so easy loving ,u cud be so great loving, u cud be so easy ,loving u cud be so great. How can i try to explain ur stories nvr seem to stay the same u're out of touch n im out of time just talk to me awhile n joke abt the things we use to see it so hard for me to smile i nvr felt so alone after all it dere so much left to lose. I take all the pieces home i promise u i nvr meant too but how can i complain when everybody seem to noe my name u're out of luck n im out of line it such a selfish compromise self indulgence useless , bunch of lies i nvr tht she wud believe.Hold me now dont wake me up , pull me down den back up , all again for all to see , low down whisper , guilty stare ,u're stagnant beauty makes me glare , silly games in the sun n how can i complaint ur story nvr seem to stay the same , im out of luck n u're out of line....

Im waiting for the perfect time to call u back coz i remember saying dont wanna noe the truth cant handle dat n i try to forget u but i dont noe how n if only i knew , its written all over ur face such painful thing to waste , tell me now , where do we go? now the future not so clear i cant believe we ended here but where the world dat doesnt care maybe i cud meet u dere. Im sorry ,if i slag u down i meant no harm when i heard the story said things i didnt mean shud have stay calm, sadly u got angry n it breaks my heart , u so mad at me .Where the world dat doesnt care , maybe i shud meet u dere , as the future is not so clear...

haiz

2005-11-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

help me guys...im losing my mind...im losing my freaking mind...i tink i need to see the docs...i need to take medicine..drugs..prescribe ones of course...i feel so freaking empty if i nvr talk to her on the phone or msn...it like she my antidote n my poison at the same time...it eating me inside out n it feeling me too...i need...i need...arghhhhhhh..aidah if u reading dis....yup it true...each nite i cant slp...it like it my ritual to talk to u b4 i slp...atleast i noe dat u r fine...if i nvr talk to u..i be worried sick...believe me, it like im asking myself , 'is she ok, wat is she doin , any1 disturbing u rite now' those qns kept goin thru my mind...i noe we talked on the phone n stuff...but it msn where it all began..i missed the times we had , talked abt nth n everything at once, hearing eachother probs,comforting eachother...i miss those times...i yearn for those times
i begining not to like the times when i had to go out n enjoy the nite wif my parents n relatives but i want to enjoy the nites wif u, U U U U...i hope next week fair better den dis...haiz...dear i truly miss u

k den....i miss her dearly
im getting a new phone
even dat kind of excitement
doesnt even come close to the
moment wif wif , be it at msn , phone
or physical...god pls help me
give me strenght

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

ehmmm

2005-11-02T05:16:00.000+08:00

have u ever tht abt everything dat makes u happy , i sure did n i found out dat dere only a few things dat makes me feel high , like reading , singing , playing my guitar , my games n my frens.My band doesnt makes me happy at all well except for aini coz me n her click u see.Then i tink some more , who does makes me happy , my family n my frens , imptly she the one dat makes me the happiest , even tho she a 2nd lady in my life , 1st one is of coz my mom.hahaha...i mean look at it dis way , we all got our happy stuffs in our lives rite...anyway...tmmr hari raya already...must do smth special for her...hehehee...i got my plans rite up my sleeves...lol...ade la tu i nak buat...tunggu aje la ehh...hahhakz...but i MISS ANOTHER DAY OF PRACTICAL!!!...GOD HELP ME!!!...hahahakz...

so i need to plan somemore wif yan n rinto biler bleh kluar ngn diorang for raye...ehmm..but dat 2 tak online aje...BEGEDIL betol!!!...hahahakz...tak pe ade hp n umah phone...biler2 bleh call up nye...u ask me y im blogging early in the morn??...coz i just wanna pass the time n tonite sure no time to blog...gie umah nenek abeh tu ambik ayah den TDO!!!...besok kene gie sembahyang aidilfitri woooohhhh....k la dah masok subuh...chiozzz

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

hahahakz

2005-11-01T11:46:00.000+08:00

well 2 days ago...sunday...i cudnt slp...told aidah dat i went to bed but in the end came back online...hahahkz...watch wrestling no mercy for awhile den came online...b4 dat...i went to geylang n so did she...y i didnt meet her...if i met her , i cud show my mom who is aidah n wat wonderful girl she is...lol...anyway...she already heard abt the good things abt aidah so if she met her...it be just a bonus point...anyway..i started to do push ups at home n at skool just to play ard wif my frens...played a game of dai dee n if u lose...forfeit , do push , depend the number of games like , 1st game - 10 push ups , 2nd game - 20 push ups , so on n so forth...it was quite fun , screaming my ass off wif the guys...lol...played ard somemore b4 classes starts but it was worthwhile ah...i miss her...so much...haiz...nvm...haq hold strong...

anyway...ytd went out wif the family , phew...long time nvr see them , quite hectic if i may say so , too bad ana cudnt come but nvm , next time ana next time , miss u kiddo...lol...met rinto 1st b4 met az , mok n ain , den we met the couple of d day , yan n syarah , my god!! , they walk ah..slow nye!! , tortoise pon bleh memang ah...serioussssss!!...anyway...makan kat sakura fareast n the waiter dat serve us name rinto...so we decided to make fun , we call rinto n the waiter look at us...we were all luffing our ass off , 7 ppl eat abt $72.60 ...woah....expensive rite...next time dont go but it was worthwhile..all food was finish , after dat we went to PS to have a drink at start bucks, we sat down n talk abt the past n present n possible future...lol...so...dat was it but it was fun but short lived ah...

miss u guys
meet u guys soon alrite
kluar raye same2 tau
go my hse 1st ah...LOL!!!...
den we go yan...dekat aje
k la gtg..
miss u dear...really...miss u...i truly do

THE OLD HAQ N THE NEW HAQ HAS MERGE,GIVING BIRTH TO THE NEW N IMPROVE HAQ BUT STILL A SHY GUY...HAHAHAHAKZ...I FEEL GREAAAAAAATTTTT!!!!!

~dis is capt haq signing off..~

ehmmm

2005-10-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

i nvr tht my life wud end up quite dis way sometimes it's hard to figure out wat i shud say i tried alone to mend dis broken heart i need u dat thing u do, when we're apart i found it hard to smile you noe dat other girls have nvr been my style well there's a feeling dat i get when i wif u i need u dat thing , i cud seach ard the world only to find the only thing i need u by my side...

dat how i feel rite now
but who cares rite
no one cares abt me or how i feel
it just some shit to them
yesssss...it can be discarded at a moment's notice
alan n me agree dat no one cares abt our feeling
yup we agreed on dat...
where are u , the one dat care for my feelings
where are u , must i wait dis long
where are u , must i go thru all dis pain
where are u , soon none is left

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

hehehahhalzz

2005-10-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

the past few days i cant aslp, n weird thing is dat i found cuts on myself dat i clearly clearly didnt inflict upon myself, cud the lack of slp causing my unconcious side to do some stuff on my body , i got 2 cuts , short ones , 1 is near my wrist but no where near my arteries, lucky, n one is near my elbow, where do dis cuts coming from...clearly i didnt cut myself, im not dat kind of teenager to go ard cutting myself to induce my pains, im not dat immature...anyway,im kinda happy wif my life, my chinese frens isnt like those back in sec skool, they really stick by u n really help u out when u r in trouble, they even out a good word for me during their interview for IA...lol..thx guys...i wont forget wat u did for me...i hope our frenship last till death..Alan , Vincent Koh , Vincent Aw , Zi Xiang , Gavin , Patrick , Weihao , Silin , Jacinta , Kwang Beng , Ser Seng , Zhi Wei , Jessica n to those i didnt mention, too many of u all, n to the mly, u guys...i c u ard ah...lol...dont worry i will still remember u all...

after dis term finish , i left wif 2 more terms...damn den im done wif ITE...all i gotta do is to maintain my GPA or improve upon it...lol

so i get my GPA
wait for my money to come
buy new hp
go dinner wif frens
play LAN wif them
den do the stupid recording
fucking lazy
create more songs
den pray dat i go for
industrial attachment
ehehehehehhee

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

ahahahahakz

2005-10-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

I'm wasting time thinking about a girl and stealing her away from her world she and I would run away I think of all the things that I'd say,We'd talk about important things and I picture it in my dreams she'd teach me about modern art and I'd show her it's okay to fart and,Maybe I'd impress her by being in a band and maybe if I act real tough she'd let me hold her hand and maybe I'll win her heartby writing this song about her,Sometimes I sit at home andwonder if she's sitting at home thinking of me and wondering if I'm sitting at home, thinking about her or am I just wasting my time,Remembering how she laughed at Kinko's when I made fun of that guy remembering the look she gave mewhen I told her that I used to cry,I really want to ask her out but my ego could never take it and even if I got the balls you know that the Cougar would never make it,ohhhhh,And in my town you can't drive naked,And maybe I'd impress her by being in a band and maybe if I act real tough she'd let me hold her hand and maybe I'll win her heart by writing this song about her,Sometimes I sit at home and wonder if she's sitting at home thinking of me and wondering if I'm sitting at home, thinking about her or am I just wasting my time,Am I just wasting my time am I just wasting my time am I just wasting my time wasting my time thinking about a girl,Am I just wasting my time am I just wasting my timeam I just wasting my time wasting my time thinking about a girl

wat a day

2005-10-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

well...ytd was doin duty at simei,had a tough day,since i was fasting but i didnt break the fast,i hold on still the end no matter wat...boss let me of early so iwent home straight , i slp when i reach home recover my lost strenght but dat wasnt enuff also...had to eat so i force myself to go on till 7...wahahahakz...yay...i manage to hold out no matter wat...lol...den today...had duty at skool...dis stupid leadership workshop ,some shit like dat ah...stupid actually,i helped out till 10 am den had to go for class , got test , lol sure flunk it...haha..deb went down to continue the duty...till 2...wth..carry tables from lvl 3...wat fuck seh...wat fuck...k after dat went home n slp till 630!!

i almost late meeting wif alan , hao n koh...wth..wahahakz...had to rush down to gombak to meet them for dinner...met up...had dinner,talk cock all the way...i drank 4 cups of milo..wahh piang...hahakz...crap will 1030...den i realised i was late!!...so all of us go home together...reach home at 11 sia!!...wahh heng my mom nvr kill me..she said she dont mind...wahahhaakz...k guys..cya

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

the song i love

2005-10-03T16:06:00.000+08:00

she said 'dont leave this up to me to say dat i dont love u anyway', just leave it up to me to say gd bye becoz these gd times nvr last ,keep a handle on the wheel and a foot on the gas , we tht it wud last forever.No,will change anything on ur mind , she said a one way ticket was a pretty good sign , n i said well how can u leave it all , n she said there aint much to leave behind, just say goodbye , so say goodbye ,say goodbye ,so say goodbye , say goodbye , just say goodbye

Next time i'll take it slow n as for u i'll nvr noe atleast next time i try to understand so please dont leave dis up to me to say you dont love me anyway. She said there aint much to leave behind anyway...so dis is good bye huh...just say goodbye...but let me say dis to u, goin once , goin twice, three time , im gone...i will leave, like an invincible man

Hwy guys

2005-10-02T07:48:00.000+08:00

woah..ytd was quite a day...met back the old family..we started studying but i dont feel quite the same tho...coz 4 of them still in sec skool n im in ite...they still as crazy as ever but i tink i grown...i changed alot...now only i see it...it shocking..

hey guys, glad to meet u again
puase nak sampai..puase tauuu
bulan ramadhan kite gie buke same2 k
we talk cock n crap as usual ah
i miss u guys seh..all of u..yes azliza..including u..dont worry
k guys..gtg..have fun bulan ramadhan
may allah bless u wif watever ur wishes are...
cya ard gang...

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

beep beep beep

2005-09-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

im kicking , how fiercely , i dont noe wat ard me
wat went wrong...

i play wif fire to break the ice
i play wif nuclear device....

maybe i impress her by being in a band
maybe i act really tough , she let me hold her hand...

fate fell short dis time , ur smile fade in the summer
place ur hand in mine ,i take u where i wanna...

dont waste ur time on me
coz u're the voice inside my head...

wheeeeee...BLINK 182...i miss them so much...y u guys have to leave!!

1 minute of silence to the dearly departed *insert silence*

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

heyyy

2005-09-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

guess wat mission accomplised...i gave her her bday present already...hahahahkz...phew...wat a day...not quite uh...IT WAS BORING, DEAD BORING DAY....i practically slp thru everything, PIC end early coz Mdm Neo told those who had done the phrase test can go home...lesson was suppose to end at 5 but today end at 230...wahahahahhalz...COOLIOSS...hope next week will be the same...speaking abt next week...dah puase seh...yesssa....i can slim down...maybe...very big maybe....wahhahahahakz...dat means slp in class to conserve energy....wahhahahahakz

so today i gave her the present
of an elephant n self made bday card
total disaster , total insane
hahaha
luffing does not matter anymore
goin nuts , goin bonkers
HAPPY BDAY AIDAH
17 already , plenty of years to go
i be here , dont worry

cya ard babe

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

hahaha

2005-09-26T16:52:00.000+08:00

well well well well well well, guess wat guys , im ok..the old haq back , even tho Jacinta still have to observe me but im backkkkkkkkkkkkkk....wheee...the master crapper in the zone again n so is partyboy , WATCH OUR GURLS COZ HERE I COME *cheecky grinz*...wahahahahakz...man m it feels good to be back in the zone , been quite a while since i felt dis way...back in the zone...lol sounds like a line used in Duel Monster , wait...it always use in Duel Monster...lol

but for now
i have to cut everything short
need to study , buck up
get the GPA i want
salvage everything i can get my hands on
n i wanna thx u for finally opening my eyes
u're not pulling me down anymore
thx , dear , appreciate it
let hope we still can go on as normal
n put dis behind us
who noes...we mite laugh abt it when we met when
we are older
hahahaha
n tmmr ur bday
remind me
if not i forget
HHAHAHAHA...now dat a joke...

k cya

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

errrr

2005-09-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

ok guys...im sorry abt the last entry , i guess i have way to much stuff in my head rite abt now....i noe i noe i said some harsh words...im sorry if it hurts u..truly am..sorry..pls forgive me...

maybe i played to much of fahrenheit
maybe im losing tooo much slp...way too much
maybe i have to go some where far , not to run but to settle down my thts
i have frens , onli 3 noes , glad , i have them
i shud give myself some space
wat space
i ask myself
i have plenty of space
wat more cud i possibily ask
n dat , i have no answer to it

haiz...long n hard days coming soon

~dis is capt haq signing off....~

lost

2005-09-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

i have 1 thing to say to myself n to all of u guys, IM FUCKING LOST...dont ask how n y...just dat if u see me...n im quiet n stuff...dat means im having thts in my mind...

boohoo
thts
kill me wif some fucking thinking
kill me wif some stones
kill me wif ur hatred n anger
kill me wif ur love....

thts
sometimes aint worth a freaking penny
if it does , i be god damn rich by now
if i think everyday , does dat makes me more clever or plain dumb
u decide
u tell
ur call

fucking hate dis

~dis is capt haq signing off...~

my new song

2005-09-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

hey guys, im here , just finish composing my new song , hahahaha...trust me, i have nth better to do at home during my free time ,

but i feel like not publishing it on the blog
just dont want to
it kinda personal
n it very sad
well...it abt me
as usual....me , more me n even more me
crap la
maybe it come out in the album
just wait for it k
end of the year
if god permits it
my band album will be out by end of the year
look out for Common Agony , Killed by love wif love
cya guys

~dis is capt haq signing off....~

ahhhh crap

2005-09-25T20:11:00.000+08:00

Let me ask u guys , wat does hell means to u and how do u noe dat u r feeling like hell...any1??...no??...k den i answer my own qn....hell means everything came crashing down on u from the alphabet A - Z, hell means to be in pain for all times wifout any light , any thts , anything at all , hell means to be cast down into the pits of darkness , n how do u noe dat u r feeling like dat , easy , u dont feel urself , u put on a mask infront of ur frens , ur smile arent sincere , ur jokes isnt funny , ur breathing isnt fully deep.... well dat my definition of hell...hahahahkz

well...good days come n gone n the bad ones are still coming n i have to prepare myself for the oncoming battle , i dont noe how the casualties will be n how abt it is but i do noe one thing , i will come out alive and be a better person , even be change for life , we just have to see in the next few mths. I been torturing myself , from head to toe, been goin to the gym to get my mind of things , carrying weights , running on tread mills , basically pushing myself beyond my limits , physically n mentally , maybe in a few mths time , i look different , im doin dis coz i want to n i need to , just to get rid of some pains n suffering , but inducing more pain m suffering to my body n mind, i even started studying , hahahaha , in all of dis time , i have to thx jacinta ,alan n dahlia , 3 of my closest buddies , as they are dere for me n they noe wat im goin thru , n i have to thx my cuzzins...wan , liy n fizah...thx guys...much appreciated 4 listening to my plight...k guys...dat it..im out of here

~dis is capt haq signing off......~

jsbfkjbkjg

2005-09-17T07:55:00.000+08:00

dis past few days have been intense n i noe somewhere deep down in me dat it not goin to stop anytime soon...study have been intense , work load have been intense and my life have been intense...wat wrong did i do now , good god.i been sleeping late , eating too little or almost none , coughing n runny nose...but it bad coz im not falling sick...it just hangs on me n it getting worse each and every dayn guess wat...i tink im head over heels for her coz my fren say they can see it
i close my eyes i see her, i open my eyes i see her , i talk to my frens i see her , i eat or slp i see her , when im studying also i see her...man...im totally zonk...hahakz...but atleast i get to see her lovely face...k nuff said..gtg..

~dis is capt haq signing off~

FUCK!!!

2005-08-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

in dis blog..i just got 1 thing to say to myself....FUCK!!!...yes...i said fuck to myself...i been down n out b4 in my life...but fis feeling take the cake...im feeling so screw...i cant start on where n how to explain wat im feeling...i need more time to tink...i need more time...im beginning to spend much more time on my ps...now dats a prob..usually i wont otuch my ps...usually i always touch my ps if dere probs...probs here n dere...n every fucking where....damn...come on probs...fuck off...just fuck off...k i need some peace n solitary confinement....damn damn damn damn...hell i dont even noe wat the fuck i am typing...dere just too much in my mind n heart rite now...i cant stop tinking abt it...abt it...it...it...it...it...argh!!!...damn it...y must it be here now...arghh!!

dats it...im gone...c ya...

~dis is capt haq signing off.....~

hahhhakz

2005-08-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

yippeeeee....dis is d 3rd time i pass my basic theory trial test...lol...1st 2 was 45...a goddamn just pass....n today was 46...haha..improvement by 1...hell...i cud have gotten 48 but noooooo i chosen the wrong answer n clearly i choose the right answer by choosing the wrong ones....aint dat dumb...come on...aint dat dumb...tell me it dumb...hahhahahhkz...n guess wat...i was sick for 2 days...damn diarrhoea n fever n flu...whooopp di doooooo....cudnt get any worse....i wasnt exactly bed ridden but i stayed in bed like for the whole day...wahahaha....i visited the doc on monday in the middle of the nite...mom force me out of bed...hell...i cudnt even stand straight...i had to kean on the wall for support...i was shivering even tho the temperature was like 30 to 33 degrees....

reach the docs...wahhh..surprise seh..didnt noe dat there are many sick ppl at nite...wahahahhak....apparently the doc gave every1 mc....wahahhaakzk....it my turn to go in..complain to the doc n he check me up..told me i was lucky to come if not maybe had to go to the hospital for drip...wheee...lucky me...hell...if i had to go for the drip...i hope it aidah's blood the gonna use on me...wahahahahak....dream on haq dream on...k...im gonna watch tv n tmmr im gonna do last minute revision on BTT , need to read the whole book again...must pass den on friday i can get PDL...WOOHOOO....best of place...wahahahahakzk....c ya guys aite..

~dis is capt haq signing off.......~

dammnnn

2005-08-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

im stuck k...im really am...im dont noe wat to do wif my life...hell...just joking...im current happy but not happy , sad but not sad , but im really really tired n stress out...too many last minute stuff needs to be done and too many practical n theory test dat need to be done soon....in less den 12 days , i will have my term break n it be heaven for me...2 days at eastcoast and it be fun n more fun n more fun as i be wif my bunch of mates and just BBQ n eat n eat n eat....den dere be teambuilding and games n swimming and stuff...just stuff....damn..dat means i have to create more new songs...nvm..i got 2 already...forever n a day n merana kerana kamu....i need 1 more english punk or ballad n malay ballad...must be nice...need to sing for her...den maybe i sing hot hot heat songs...see how...

k..now i need inspirations , motivations n creative ideas for songs...really...pls..someone pls help...thx...whahahahahkz....at the same time i can entertain my frens wif my home-made songs...just hope they like it....i really want to make a good impression n to impress my frens dat i can be creative n innovative as well...wahhahahaakz...dat means i have less den 12 days to create 2 songs...damn..dat cutting it really really close....1st thing 1st...does she even like malay songs......one way to find out...on the outing i play at nite n pray it doesnt rain....hahahakz...pls god dont let it rain...wahahahahkz...wahahahahkz...k dat means i need to talk to my other exco abt dis n to confirm again...damn...more work need to done....k off i go to watch tv...c ya ard gjuys

~dis is captain haq signing off......~

iufgsifgsaiufgio

2005-08-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

guess wat...im fallen sick...2 days b4 SIF talk im sick...hahahahahakz...im screwed , need to get better by tmmr...dat means goin for PE n not doin anything...hahahahakz...dis few days i been very emo...damnit..how to noe dat im feeling emo...check my playlist...it always love song...hahahakz...sad rite...im like..haiz...im listening to Michael Buble and Amy winehouse...it like those frank sinatra and stuff...those sweet sweet love song...dat talks abt undieing love , untainted love n stuff...haiz...wish my love cud be like those in the songs...den it be sweet as heaven...or so they say...hahhakz...ok wat happen today....ehmm let see...i attend class for 2 hrs onli...lucky for me...i did Pius phrase test...hahahaklz...den i attend dis talk den i did PA...for whole day...guess wat...den didnt need to attend anymore class after dat..i straight went home...but during my duty...i had a small n short meeting wif JM, SL and WH...to talkl abt a few individuals....hahahakz...it bad for them already

den i was damn tired n lethargic n fuck up the whole day...i knew i was falling sick as i wasnt able to move as fast n react as fast as usual...i was panting like a dog after a short dash...it not me...i noe soemthing is wrong wif my body n mind..i guess i been thinking alot lately n didnt have much rest...haiz...ok la...i need to study...haiz tmmr got some1 want to talk to me..i guess it abt her...y cudnt she make it easier on me n talk to me directly...seriously...i had it up till here wif my own set of probs....wif skool , studies , love life n student council...n she want to create more trouble for me...wtf man wtf...i need back up in dis...i be talking to some of the heads to help me sort of this probs...k gtg..bb studies..studies!!!...bbbbbbbbb

~dis is capt haq signing off.......~

hhahhaahahah

2005-08-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

wat the hell...i reminise abt the past...sweet ones n i came close to crying...hahahakz...all coz of a letter dat i wrote a few mths back...it the sweetest letter i wrote in all my 18 yrs of my life , i poured my heart n soul into dat letter , explaining to her wat i felt n feel n y her....i really feel dat the letter will tell her everything...i waited for her n i will wait some more even it kills me..or she feel in love wif someone esle den i cant do much...ppl say if ur love one is happy u be happy to...to me dat BULLSHIT...i wont be happy if she fall in luv wif someone else...i will accept the facts but i wont be happy......hahaha...k lame..lame lame LAME...haq, get a grip on urself....k let move on from dat stupid lame paranoia of mine...let see...dis week i be busy as hell...let see...i must go to waterfront hotel dis thursday n friday for dis talk n den on friday i have PA n Parade Commander training rite after the talk at waterfront hotel...dat ok...but the ting is...i have test...practical and theory...im screwed sia...come on haq...u need to study to get 4 point dis term not 4 , 3.5 it better...as long it above 3...u can do it haq...u can balance studies n student council...u can do it...hahahakz...

ok...i feel dat i need to compose a new song n stuff...not for band but for me...for the fun of it but i dunno where to begin...shud i do malay rock , or english punk rock/romantic or plain old punk rock...haiz...it always abt a girl in the end...no surprise dere...lol...if it english...maybe i present it to my band...depends on me rite...hahahakz....i cant wait for dis week to be done...lol...4 more days to go...whoopiee...ok anyway...i gtg...c ya

~dis is capt haq signing off.....~

heyyy

2005-07-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

ok...it been awhile since i blog...k now im very stress k..school probs , band probs n student council probs...i love my job at SC...it d best job ever...am really proud to have it...but some ppl doesnt understand dat...he tinkins becoming a student councilor is a waste of freaking time n waste of band time but wat does he noe...NTH...dat it..NTH...he not in Sc how he not in Sc n he doesnt noe wat time waste really mean n all he does is rant abt his working life n shit n some more stupid shit abt he has bigger responsibilits...BOOHOO...do i like fucking care...wat the fuck...do i look like i fucking care...tell me...u dont give a fuck abt me n u expect dat i give a fuck abt u,...2 words to u...FUCK U!....anyway...i been doin alot thinking n it seems dat my thts always stray to her...y..i ask myself...d answer is simple...i dunno...she seem to keep me in checl n stuff...be my support where no one else wants to be n tell me dat everything be fine...i gave her the same treatment but nvr expect to be given back...anyways,...it all abt her...everything is all abt her...my very core , my very being , my very soul is etch wif her name all over it...yes it sound extreme but so fucking wat...im happy...jealous is it...tak blhe nampak org senang seh....

ok..now im stuck wif like alot of...errrrr...u noe wat...n those choices are hard to made coz all the u noe wat are nice n very....dat one...hahahahakz...i dunno wat to say la...ok im tired n stress out due to alot of duties n planning to be done in aug itself...let see...i have like 4 events to plan in aug seh...dat alot ok...headache occurs everynow n den...HE doesnt understand my sitch at all...to me , Student Council n Studies n Science comes 1st NOT music..y the fuck he doesnt understand dat...ok i gtg...need to study...i shall rant abt my life some other day...c yaaaaa!!!..///

~dis is capt haq signing off......>~

ahhahaakzz

2005-07-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

k guys...decided to put up my band lyrics...said to say onli got 4 ready...sorry...u want the songs..onli 2 ready....cant confess written by azhar n ease my pain written by sharif , cant get u out of my min written by ali and some girl and forever n a day written by me(it out already..check past blogs)...here they are..

Can’t get You Out Of My Mind

Verse: 1
The first time I met you
I thought you’re the girl of my life
I threw myself to…. you
And finally you’re mine

Everything seems to be fine
Until you change in time
There nothing left to say
Cause you’re slipping away
Verse: 2
He enter your life
And so you left me
Your words are all lies
You took granted of me

I asked you to stay
But nothing move you this way
I gave you my heart
But you… threw it away
Chorus:
Can’t get you… out of my mind
Your love is… one of a kind
After all that we’ve been through
You left me… out of the blue

Can’t get you out of my mind
Your love is one of a kind
Verse: 3
You love me no more
Girl you make my heart sore
I cried with no tears
Your voices still in my ears

There’s nothing left to do
You killed the trust that I gave you
It’s been hard and let me show
There’s something I want you to know

Ease My Pain

Verse:
Sitting by the sea, where we always should be
No one else but just only on you and me
All the sweet times we have were left as memories
Cause there is nothing to say
All were left as historyAfter all I did, giving love that you need
Leaving me alone, feeling down with misery
Do you ever care how I feel getting dump
By you oh you stupid bitch

Chorus:
Why am i alone again, there’s nothing much that I can gain
From the love that has cause so much pain
Why should you play this game
And leaving me alone again
Nothing can ease my pain

Verse:
What the hell had I done
Is this too lame for you
Sacrifice my time, just to be with you
Or is it the other side, now that you have someone else
Going for the money and greed in your mind
True love is not what you really wantWhy pity the guy that you using him now

sorry cant publish cant confess...lol...got prob wif it...lol..i update something real soon la

yesssa

2005-07-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

waddup ppl....guess wat..i have a damn post in sc...for those who i tell it chairman of standing committee..forgive me as it is wrong...it chairman of CCA Enrichment Committee....still the biggest ass hole of all chairman...lol...reason 4 them picking me...im dedicated , responsible and mature enuff to shoulder dis job..fuck it..i take it..i accept the challenge Darin<-he is my old boss
n guess wat...5 of my classmates have high post in SC...lol...cant name them yet...after august den i can name...i got plenty to put in dis damn story...all in all..im pretty fucked up la...need to create more songs while doing my duty as a councillor and planning stuff for investiture and national day n stuff....im multi-multi tasking...lol...how can i survive..ask weihao n junming n alan...4 of my best buds..wifout them i be drifting here n dere...in pieces...lol....thx to them...im in one piece....gone for alot of meetings..wrote alot of proposal , talk to alot of teachers , make alot of new frens...even tho i want to screw them rite abt now...lol..even talk to the highest management...lol....they even listen...lol...k i gtg now la..slppyyyyy...lol...got skool u noe...got meeting to attend...shit...lol...where my stuff?!!??!...damnit...all gone ..nvm..i memorize of all it...DAMNIT!..how cud i lost it...DAMNATION!!..k buai2..................

wadduppp

2005-07-04T22:08:00.000+08:00

k...sorry for the late updates...been bz wif skool....LIKE REAL...lol...kinda lazy to do it...dont see the need too actually...n y do i have a blog...aint got the foggiest idea...lol...Common agony been buzy lately...updating , editing n creating new songs..here one i created....lol...title name

Forever n a day...still in the process of being recorded..

verse 1

Monday morning came too soon
Wake up staring at the sky
With alot of things going thru my head
Feeling tired and beat-up
Due to stress life in the club
Rarely see her face that much , yeah

Chorus

I want you
Being close to me
I will love you
Forever and a day
I need you
To see your perfect smileTo feel you in my wide open arms

Verse 2

Thinking that life such a breeze
Didnt want you to see me like this
Being down and out of luck , feeling misery
Wishing for you here with me
I really want you to see
That my love for you is real , so real

sorry dahlia...lol..cant change the word club..all my members like it...LOL!!!

hahaha

2005-05-14T15:44:00.000+08:00

hey guys...i have nth better to do so i decided to write a blog...k..wat happen the past few weeks..NTH!...MAY is the SUCKIEST MTH EVER....even tho i had my bday...IT STILL THE SUCKIEST MTH EVER...due to some complications in my damn life...it been like hell....i hate it bur beginning to except it like a man ah...coz im 18..so i need to tink responsibly n maturely n logically...hahahha...k k it makes me sound like im so freaking old...k my gig is in the 18th june...no idea wat place n time....but we playing our original songs...hahahha...3 original...maybe 4...coz i just created 1 more...hahahha...k ah disis all im goin to write..have no freaking mood to do my damn blog...hahaha...k k chiow...

rufio - still

2005-05-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

Trapped inside of your eyes, gleam like stars above,
emptiness inside.
Caught inside of your arms, warmer than the sun,
never felt so full.

Although I can see, time is not running out,
I still run behind everything. I don't understand,
I embrace every thought, everyword...everything.

You're watching, my heart being,
so close to you, your bleeding thoughts.
Open wounds still breathing
You're my everything, you're my everything

Left behind hateful thoughts, overwhelmed by your mind,
lost in time again.
Shadows bringing me down, jealous of your face,
drowning in your awe.

Tears of unseen light, heart stopping.
Tears of unseen hope, heart stopping

dis song is dedicate too aidah too...is from rufio - still...it very nice...lyrics r meaning to me...hahaha..to me dat...especially the chorus...

rufio - one slow dance

2005-05-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Your smile at me Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place. Oh.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you there
By my side
Your smile at me Is everything
The staring game
That song of love

dis is a very nice song...Rufio - One slow dance...i dedicate dis to aidah...coz...it somehow says wat i want...k...n i dedicate dis to myself too...wahahahahha

hey

2005-04-14T20:14:00.000+08:00

hey wat sup guys...long time no see...or something like dat...bet yall missing my blogs eh...wahahahha...ok...nth up....something up but i cant say much ah...too stressful...too tired...too restless....i keep thinking of "it" everyday n "it" is like a poison...a very deadly poison which is eating my very being inside out....anyway...i join student seminar...it a thingie in august...which is...4 student by student...dat means we got to do all the damn work while the teachers sit n obseve us....useless staff...but watevr...i having fun but fun soon turn tooo stress...im quitting it soon...i dont want to lose out to my studies...more ever...PEQ...arghhh...dat course is most impt to me coz i dont understand a damn thing...i missed most of it...N i tried to revise WHICH IS NOT happening coz nth goin thru my head...i need Mr Chew...wahhhhhhhhhh....ok ok dat sound gay...but he my teacher 4 goodness sake...he the onli one dat can help me rite now...so im goin to see my teacher...but i do have my stress buster kit..not those from 98.7 fm..those things r useless...trust me..even tho i dont have 1 b4...my stress buster kit is my band...jamming songs wif them can make me 4get abt skool for once...hahaha...joke wif them..talk wif them...crap wif them....n something happen on one of the jamming day...cant say..too private...so...im gonna quit student seminar...concentrate on my studies...nnnnnn...be cool n hip...hahahaha...ok ok..im gonna do some rocking,....c ya ard dudes n dudettes.....

~Dis is Capt Haq signing off~ [end transmission]

shit

2005-02-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

wahahahhaahahhaa....im jsut too happy....for aidah...she finally ok..really ok...yess!!...i manage to help her...hahaha...wahahhaha...happy yes..very...another reason is dat i meet an old fren..a buddy of mine...KARTHIC at deyi when i wnet back to deyi to get my N lvl cert..we had fun as me usually make fun of ppl, jacking karthic n capping wif him n talking to old frens dat wanna meet me...hahahah...den stuff n stuff n stuff n stuff...went smoking wif him, crap under a block talk talk talk, dunno abt wat...abt the Movie Hitch , Constantine , smoke some more....crap alot...talk n talk n taljk..wahhahaha..den i had to leave...so sad...but we shall meet again , old fren...no matter wat...whahahah

i went to tuition , well jsut to meet old fren...coz i promise Mok dat i come but when i come , he havent arrive but onli Az n Rafi had arrive n we had a gd talk wif eachother coz it been a while i met them...so talking n crapping continue wof them...hahahah...den Mok come, we crap somemore , den Shan come...we crap wif her..den Farhana come, my god sis...we crap even more...den...the master prankster come , RINTO...my partner n bradder in crime...wahhahahah..we crap even more plus infinity...wahahaha..too bad...no one seem to be studying..i studied chemistry...waghagha..for the fun of it..den the rest do their own business...hahah.a.fter crap n crap until abt 8 30..i had to leave by then..went home but it was late...very very late...i reach home quite late...but lucky didnt get reprimanding from my parents..hwahahha...den NOW here i am writing dis blog for u all...wahahha...well i just had an inspiration for a poem so here it goes

water
Water is so cool
Sparkly and clean
Ever clear , ever pure
To see such life thriving
As to see yours
So pure , so virgin
Hear the wave crashing on the beach
is like to hear you sing
Like an angel
You are so pretty
as the finest sand
So white , so smooth

dat for aidah...yes...it for u!!..u r my source of inspiration...hahahaha..hope u like it

~Dis is Capt Haq signing off~ [end transmission

wat!!

2005-02-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

i cant bloody believe it...im finally im goin to be a councellor..i noe i noe..it not a biggie but hey..at sec skool , im a devil plus a pranskter...but at ITE..im goin to be a councellor??!!!...but it ok..Thx Mr Murali...i owe u one...hahaha..he's one good teacher..he the one recommend me to be a councellor , for the interview n dat stuff...i got a duty immediately...Daren , the SCO or Student Council President gave me 1 duty straight away which i gladly accept...the duty is at Bukit Batok ITE...wahahahah...at my campus..power...so no need to travel far far...anyways...made new frens..can name some onli..like Majid n leonus...i think dat how it spell n Daren , SCO president , Siti , SCO Incharge, n there Dominic or Dom , SCO VP , n some seniors , like Chung Fat , Helmi , Danniel (a mly guy) , Sufiyan, Jeffrey and some other seniors...who are quite loving n familiy like...anyway..duty was fun..really fun..ushering ppl into the audi n gurading doors n talking to other councellor from other campus like Dover , Ang Mo Kio and Balestier.

Ok...den i got the shock of my life...Aidah told me something big...some big secrets dat i wont mention for the sake of her happiness, i dont want to make her sad coz it hurt me alot to see her sad...it true..haq the heartless grown a heart...a good one dat is...wahhahaha..ok ok..den she told me the whole story from A - Z den i gave her some help..not much but ut help nonetheless...i make her smile after dat...told dat if she needs help..she can give me a ring or msg me..or msg me at msn...wahahah..i feel gd, helping a fren who is in need. She msg me the next day tellig me she didnt want to talk to her n stuff..i encourage her to talk but it up to her to talk or not...so..im jsut a helper...nothing more nothing less...but she was thankful for it...im just here to help..haiz...

Anyway...today..talk to her..aidah...she feeling better...thx god for dat..im quite happy for her dat she able to be happy again..talk to her , crap here n dere, talk abt the past, the smiling incident..i talk abt dat ltr on..den i got the shock of my life when she said dis guy is a better crapper than me..i was like wth...no way...ah ah...no way...my title...master crapper is not for release yet...not now not ever..i have dat title thru sheer hard work , sweat n blood...maybe too exaggerating on the blood part but it true on sheer hardwork n sweat...4 yrs wif Mr Faaiz , my tuition teacher , i crap alot...wif all kinds of student , the title master crapper come wif the biggest title of all PARTYBOY which me n me alone can hold...WHAHAHAHA..so screw u...ahaha..no way u taking dis title..anyway..i told rinto...another master crapper n master prankster...his title is hard to achieve, oonli if u do the unthinkable den u can have it...which proll u wont even dare to tink of doing it..he is my boss.. even tho im older...haha..consulted wif him , he told me to kill the guy...which i tht of it 1st but too bad..u one luckt dude..we dont noe u...nw e cudnt care less abt ur crappiness...wahahah..EVIL...PURE EVIL...dat us...Me n Rinto...PURE EVIL....TOO EVIL...ok i gtg..c ya

~Dis is Capt Haq signing off~ [end transmission]

2005-02-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hie hie...sorry i didnt write the blog for a very long time...been busy for pass few days...wif frens (ever useless) , stuff (ever piling up) and life ( ever so expecting)....I was sick during V day...hahaha...but nvm..i alraedy gave Siti Nurasilah my present , a 3d heart shape necklace but i felt like i gave the wrong person...nvm abt dat...let talk abt my band...a band dat was form lat yr...during the holiday of the holiday...after my N lvl result..Ali , my childhood fren , we met during my class in madrasah...is a guitarist , he left his band a form a rock band...den he call me to play for him...as a drummer which i have no idea how but it was like an unknown talent was unleashed from inside of me...hahaha...den i met my band member...the 1st was the bassist n i got shock of my life...it was a girl...name Aini...she good..better than some guys n even me...i got 4 yrs of guitar experience udner me n i still can play like her...talk abt losing to the weaker sexs...haha..sorry girls..didnt mean dat..girls not weakers sexs...we r equally tough...

Ok...den i met my 2nd band member , which is my rythmist who by chances happen to be my very old pri skool fren...wat luck , meet 2 old frens in 1 day..Aini was in the same pri skool but she 1 yr younger than me...name Azhar...a short but stocky guy, a good guitarist n composer, half the song we playing are his song...his songs are good..very catchy...den we went to his hse to do some talking n stuff...who do wat n shit...den i come up wif the idea to go for our very 1st jamming session , wifout our vocalist who cant come...or he didnt want to join coz he wanted to do his N lvl back...so Ali , our gr8 lead guitarist has to psycho him back...1st jamming session was horrible but it was fun..me touching the drums..all to myself...it like i own it...it mine but no one else...hahaha...

After the session , Ali went for work n me n aini n azhar went to watch kung fu hustle...1st time met back n when off to watch a movie...how funny...hahaha...den it like kinda cool...2 guys n a girl...azhar carrying his guitar, ainin wif her bass n me wif my drums sticks...it like a total cool kind of scenario..ppl was looking at us...hahaha..it was fun...den we went home after the show...after dat...more jamming session...each week at least 1 hr or 2...co we need to practice the sons..now i can play cant get u out of my mind n confession prefectly...hahah...cool..love the beat....kinda catchy...ok..let see...Ali the lead guitarist who is also a composer for the band..some songs he create...he is a gd leader too...Azhar a rythmist...the composer for the band..half the songs we playing are his...den dere Aini...the ever forgetful bassist but she damn good wif the bass...den dere sharif...didnt meet him until recently...he the vocalist , got good voice , no wonder Ali choose him,...den dere me..the best...haha..jk jk..love the drums...my inspiration all from Blink 182 n Greenday plus some of Megadeth , Iron maiden...hahahaa...

Ok abt my poetry writing...it come ard the same time as my talent for drumming...my source of inspiration is Siti Aidah....hahahaha...ok..here some samples...

Beauty in the eye of the beholder

Your beauty is unparallel
like billion of stars scattered
across the galaxy
shining brightly in endless night
glowing like a young sun
your eyes are soft as the nebulae
as the colours grown bright
purest white , endless black
doesnt matter fi you know that
as long as i live
i shall love you
for eternity

dat 1...luv dis is one...but here another

LOVE

Love is a vast sea
Endless wave cast upon the shore,Beauty of the sunset
as so is your beauty
White sand so purejust like you
Innocent and sweet
Clear blue waterShining under the glazing sun
just like you
shining under the stars
Love is a vast sea
Endless wave cast upon my words

dis one was like totally a shock when i wrote it....the poems i wrote were originally for SITI NURASILAH but it turn out i wrote for SITI AIDAH
thx aidah...for being the inspiration to me

Dis is Haq of Echo Gundam , let go n kick ass......

shit

2005-01-04T13:46:00.000+08:00

Well...well...well...hols almost ending for me...kinda excited to get into ITE...YESH!!!...i got matriculated in Bukit Batok Ite..gonna do SCIENCE...WEEEEE!!!!...finally able to do something i love most on earth, in the galaxy, in the unvierse, in the multi-verse (dat teenage mutant ninja turtle)....well...to pass time,i been decorating my room,...well..it not like aidah's room or anything.her room sooo colourful sia...jealous...hmmppfff...hahaha...jk jk..well..i can safely call my room a shrine of spiderman...the greatest superhero dat live....u gotta love is mouth...fast n he is a wise cracker or shud i say a one-liner guy...well..im missing her la..not aidah...but someone else...but dont tink it can happen...thx to my buddy rinto dat snap me back to reality...hahah..thx bro...too bad..she has a bf..so..staying as frens will do...but wat the heck i was thinking ytd..telling rinto to tell adilah dat i like her...shit..gotta abort dat mission for awhile...replan the plan first...maybe after a few weeks into ITE...no luck dere den i tell rinto to tell her...hahaha...wat a damn partyboy i am...but gotta let go dat title for now...need to study...hard...harder den i used too...hahha...miss u girls already sia...let me name em...noo, kaly , nar , liy , roby n hanis...hahah.. MISS U ALL!!!...ahaha..im sure rinto miss liy alot...haha..nack off rinto...liy's my cousin...hahaha...jk jk...got after her la..get married to her...den we really become blood bro...ahahahaha...dat 1 dream dat is nice...hahahaha...ok ok stop crapping haq...it seems like i havent been writing in for awhile...well..im lazy..wat to do...been playing ps2 for like few hrs straight a day...haha...on comp whole day...den do some stuff....shopping for skool bag, shirt , stuff...hahaha...i got 1k 3 days ago...blew half of it on my new skool bag, mp3 player , 2 dvds n dunno wat else...hahahaha...ok ok...i write back to ya when i have soething new to tell u...like wat..u ask me....like crap la..hahha...crap crap crap crap....WHEEEE!!!!..finally im able to do a guitar solo...by the megadeth some more...hahaha....now the twin tower really in control..twin tower u ask me again...ehmmm...me n wan...my real real blood bro...the 2 best guitarist in the family...hahahaha...cos we r the onli guitarist in the family...hahahaha...hahahaha....hahahahaha...*gagging*...hahaha...sorryok ok..i go now..

dis is captain haq signing off

well

2004-12-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

Well...alot has happen dis past few weeks...for e.g..i bought a ps2 n played till my heart contend, 2 days ago i got my N lvl reuslt...guess wat..i failed...well..not dat of a big deal actually....felt sad tho..but nth time wont heal...my band got back together but it lasted for 1 jamming session as eddy , the drummer has to go to Ns police...haha..dat suc..but wan ask me to continue learning...even tho eddy is gone for few mths...we need to buck...we r good but wanna become better...i can PLAY Iron Maiden - The Trooper complete!!..wheee n Megadeth - She-wolf too...wheeee...haha..still getting the hang of Hanger 18 by Megadeth , Prophecy n Dark Saga by Iced Earth....kinda wanna try Shadow Falls n some other band...but need to talk it a pace at a time...anyways...life kinda sux...goin to ITE...hoping to get wat i want...Science...ahaha..love it..cant live witout it...hahaha...ok gtg..need to sleep...chiowz

Dis is Captain Haq signing off...[end transmission]

haha

2004-11-25T13:00:00.000+08:00

Someday
When I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight

Yes you're lovely
With your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft
There is nothing for me but to love you
And the way you look tonight

With each word your tenderness grow
Tearing my fear upon it
And that laugh
Wrinkles your nose
Touches my foolish heart

Lovely
Never ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it
Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight

And that laugh
That wrinkles your nose
It touches my foolish heart

Lovely
Don't you ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it
Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight

Hmm...
Hmm...
Just the way you look tonight

dis is by Frank Sinatra...song title is The Way You Look Tonite...(Sly sing dis song but it sucks...Frank sings even better) ....i wish i can say who i dedicate dis song too but i cant...haha...not in liberty to say

weee

2004-11-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

MAN!!!...had a great day...met new frens...3 of them..4 actually...all Liy's closest frens i presume....ok...hey i go...see if i can remember them...ok...there Farhanis, liy call her hanis, den there nurul...think dat her short name..they call her nuu or noo...dont noe the spelling..den the Robiah, all ofthem call her Roby n there 1 more person...didnt get her name( sorry ok)...haha..i met them alll at far east...to be precise...Taman Ros..eating place...Farhanis had to came to late..her teacher call ehr abck..but Roby the last one to arrive...haha when all of us done wif out lunch...she still eating..awhahaha.but she packet her food...cheater...dat wat lina call her...ahaha..oh ya..lina is Liy' younger sis...so...all togetehr...im the onli guy in a 5 grp girlo outing..can u imagaine the thrill!!...haha joking joking...it nice to be ard them...sooo frenly..soo talkative...sooo nice...sooo frenly..(didnt i said dat)...sooo sooo sooo nice?..hahah..cant find words already..

Went to pray den we walked towards the thearthe...haha..dis 3 girls ar...hanis , roby n nuu..haiz girls...seriously..pay attention pls..we goin to Cine leisure NOT the Shaw Towers...hahahaden it was like nice...jsut nice.. la..had to watch out for Lina tho...she doenst noe how to sit still...reach the thearthe...i had to take the escalator...lift too pack..hahaha..abt 1 hr into the show...Roby spill her popcorns n we all share the popcorns i bough...weeeee....hahahaha

after the show...we didnt want to go home just yet but had too coz running out of ideas some more liy had to go home str...so i had to tag along...but it was a nice day...hahaha...love every mins of it...made frens...hahaha...hahha...hahaha...

dis is haq a.k.a ~.ELITE.~PaRtYbOy signing off

wat a week

2004-11-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

Well well well wel...IM BACK!lol...sorry guys..i didnt update my blog...too busy or just plain lazy...ok..where shld i start...how abt the first day of Hari Raya Aidilfitri...ok..

Ok, i go up in the morning , got rdy n stuff, when to the mosque wif my dad den after dat went home to have lunch..den start the day by asking for forgiveness from my parents...the thing is...i cant cry...no matter how sad the situation or happy...i can cry...hahah..weird rite...so back to the story...when to my grandma's hse..my dad's mom, met all my aunties n all my cousins...played n chatted wif them...lol...fun day...been a while since i met them...especially Adha n family...well..it like they diff...all grown up..lol..den i ask for forgiveness from my aunties n granma...wish i could ask for forgiveness from my grandad but he gone.....BUT nvm...he a good man..im sure he forgave me...lol..den went to my other granma's hse, my mom's mother...met all my dearie cuzzie....also been quite a while i met them..but all of us love eachother...(dont u guys??)...den i went to my other grandma's hse, now it my dad's aunty...also played wif my cuzzies...dat all for the first day

2nd day, nvr went out..dad was working so we skip to 3rd day

3rd day, when out as a big big big family, coz all my aunties n my uncles came to my hse( my mom younger bro's n sis's)...it was like 3 cars n 4 family including mine...hahaha..den went ard few relative hse's...ahha..dat all..

keep u guys update aites...

Boring!!!

2004-10-29T12:45:00.000+08:00

WELL...Aint holiday such a fun...YA RITE...stuck at home wif nth to do except rot to death.I been sleeping at 2 am sometimes evern 3 am dis whole week, actuallie the whole holida lah since i stop goin to skool...LOL..*cheeky grinz*...luckily for me..aidah keep me company or was i keeping her company..lol..dunno...seem to work the same way to me(thx aidah...i owe u alot..coz u accompany me till u sleep..lolx).Ok here, the loadout of each day, i sleep at 2 am, wake up at 5 to have sahur, den sleep back, well..here the fun part. from 5 30 am , i can sleep till like 1 pm...dat is like 8 n a half hrs....wat a pig!...so each day i spent abt 11 hrs b4 i sleep

Dis wat i do everyday...it fun...really no joke..it damn fun...*snigger*..wake up, bath n everything, play runescape until like 4 or 5...den watch tv...hehehe...my fav show is Masked Rider Ryuki n Major Dad on channel I...lol...love the shows...but now im really wishing 4 books...coz my room is empty!!...my mom packed most of my stuff except comp tv n playstation so im considered lucky....if not i dont noe wat i do if there no comp in my room...maybe cry to death...i dunno??..or just lie of my bed n rot...dat seem such a good idea if there no comp in my room..OK...i have to go to library soon if not i go crazy not reading any books wat so ever.

Gotta ask yana for help...ask him how to convert music file n paste em to my bloggie...damnit...dis blog is nice but no sound...ehmm...if i noe how...hehehe...the song Black nite from Deep Purple will be playing already...lol...ok cya

me n my guitar

2004-10-27T11:45:00.000+08:00

Well...to start dis off...i been playing my guitar for 3 yrs n i will continue palying until i die...been wanting to play guitar since i was a kid n manage to fulfill my dreams in sec 1.I signed up for guitar class at a CC but they didnt call me like until 2002...dont noe y..but luckily my skool arrange a guitar lesson for us n it FUN! The teacher is a nice person, like to make jokes every now n then.It onli took me like 3 mths to get the hang of playing the guitar coz i love playing the guitar.After the first lesson, i told my dad to buy me a guitar den i practice n practice until my fingers bleed..im serious...dat wat u get whne u practice playing guitar.

Den onli the CC call me up n guess wat...im the onli mly guy in there...the rest all chinese...lol but the teacher is a nice guy...took care all of us n he was surprised to learn dat i learn even further wat the rest havent reach yet...lol..wat i tell ya...fast learner...den my cousin who already an expet wif guitars guve me songs to learn from internet..while im still learning at the CC.After i finish basic, i didnt continue but i studied on my won..dat how i survive until now.I join my cousin band n still wif them but i rarely go jamming wif them due to the time diff n im always busy wif studying.Over the years, i learn to play bass which is easier than guitar..dont ask me y...it just easy..den i learn how to play drum but my coordination still off but got room to improve..currently palying songs like funk, punk n rock..abit of metal...

OK la...im goin ...bbbbbbbbbbb

Y i call my tuiton teacher a devil?

2004-10-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

LOL..dis gonna be a long story...all started like3 yrs ago...i was like the 4th person to enter his new tutition group so there was dis girl name Melissa Illyana or something like dat, den sufiyan(one of the blood braders) n his sister, Dian Ristina.I was very quiet bcak den, didnt talk much to them i as was too shy...wat to do, im an introvert,always by myself but doesnt seem to mind,but my tution teacher devilish horns werent dat sharp yet until 1 day.

I made one confession dat seem to ruin my life on the year 2002 i think...dat when his horns r as sharp as a knife...i tell u..it was scary at first...i didnt trust him much wif my secrets not until few yrs later...he manage to screw up my sec 2 life pretty much..at some point i wish i didnt met him but it was all worth it...

Year 2003, i was in my first year of sec 3...dis is the year when rinto, farhana , liyana n some other kids join i think..didnt talk to them dat much...like i told u..im a introvert...rather be alone...den i see alot of funny stuff happens...dis la dat la...lol..very funny...my fren dzul go so piss off coz my tuition teacher reveals his secrets...lol...we were like...wat ever but laugh like hell..dzul's face were red...

Yr 2004, ahh..dis year i made frens wif all the 2003 kids n 2004 kids, not dat shy anymore coz IM THE DAMN SENIOR there,longest running kid goin to dat tuition..lol...i love dat place...dont noe y but it jsut homey coz it at his home..lol..he conducts his tution at his home...it fun goin there, btw he had 3 kids over the course of 3 yrs...the oldest is a boy n he is 3 , 2nd is a girl n she 2 n the third is another boy n he is 1...lol...all born 1 yr apart..cute kids...lol...very mischivious too...now i trust him wif my damn life...lol..i love dat guy...

YAY!!!

2004-10-24T12:29:00.000+08:00

I was suppose to write dis entry yesterday but was too busy doin my blog page...i ha fun doin it...lol...lucky for me , Leraine was there to guide me on wat to do n now i get the hang of it, i think.Crap Crap.Ytd was FUN..wif the capital F...serious...lol...when to my best buddy 21st bday party...the guy sure can PARTY!!!

Ok...i was in such a dilemma on wat to wear...my cousin say just wear t-shirt n jeans but i was like hello, it at a restaurant n it a 21st bday....he just laugh n he said to wear wat i like...i consulted wif some of my frens(thx to Aidah 4 clearing my doubts) so i wear a casual wear wif jeans...it match!!...So i met my fren at 5 30 pm at Ang Mo Kio Mrt n we waited n waited n waited for our other fren to arrive.Got on the train n soon off to little India.Walked ard n we were lost i tell ya...funny stuff la...me n colin started talking abt America's Finest The Marines , we arrived at the restaurant n we were the first grp to arrive, ard 7 15 pm, ppl start pouring in, apparently surria, the bday boy invited his relaltive n his close frens n im honoured to be one of those invited.Then there was the cake cutting ceremony n the grp of frens which is us wanted to sabo him but his aunty got to him first..shucks...but after dat we had dinner!!.It as fun meeting my old bowen sec frens n talk to them...lol..

DEN my fren did a thing dat i wont never forget..he said the dance floor is open n he ask us to dance...lol...i said wat the heck...let go den...but i was the 4th person to be on the dance floor...he on alot of indian songs n we dance like indians?...lol..i didnt noe wat i was dancing too..after dat we were the last grp to go home n the plan was to sit at star bucks atPlaza Singapura but my mom didnt allow me as it was too late already.Reach home ard 1130 or was it 1145...couldnt remember..after dat went online n chatted n den i worked on my blog page...need to add song to hit...lol..ltr

B4 n After

2004-10-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

Well...here i am again...trying hard to write something dat i dont noe wat to write on...it like 1110 pm at nite...kinda lame i noe to put dis kind of entry but wat the heck...passing up the time.Coup in my room all alone but dont mind coz i been alone 4 ;ike i can remember...well....solitude is my companion n i love it..it just me n the comp n the music n the tv n the fan n the air n the other sutff in my room but my room kind empty...all my stuff has been put away coz im shifting hse...haiz...wat to do...my mom decision n i go wif it...

Let start on my holiday rite after N level...but 4 dat i shall write wat happen b4 n during N level...hehehe...funny stuff...ok...4 the first time in my life...i feel like studying, really study...put my back into it..polish up my subjects, pushing my self to the damn limits, the whole 9 yards. So, me n my study buddy, my ever lasting buddy, Rinto studied togther... under the tutelage of Mr Faaiz aka The GREAT DEVIl...we talk abt dat ltr on..we studied n memorize formula, methods n explanations n stuff untill our head was so fillup...we had to clear it by playing counterstrike every day for destressing purpose.

3 days has gone n out of the blues , dis young girl ,who is studying at the same tuition place ask 4 my name...i dint give it n the spot...i was more like "y u want my name, im nobody" but i give it to her anyway...heh...kinda fun actually , giving my name to a girl but i push it aside as bigeer things needed to be attended.ON the 4th day, i fall sick.wif a mild headache n sore throat n a cough but i still push on.N on 4th october 2004, the big day has arrive, my N level started.4 a week i didnt play or do anything stupid coz N level was on so all i did was study at tuition n at home, boy, it sure hard, but it for the future,like my dad says,surffer now den suffer later...

5 days later N level has ended n i manage to get thru in 1 piece...lol...ya..den i fall sick..btw...i was sick thru out the whole N level...lol.Went out wif Rinto to have fun, played Counterstrike almost everyday...when to tuition to play game n talk to our buddies.Heh...had fun we all.There's the crazy bunch,me , Rinto n Wen Qin, WEn qin crazy, im crazier n Rinto Craziest...serious...3 of us can wreck havok on earth n everywhere.crazy son of bitches...lolz.OH OH OH...best part coming, The Fasting Mth. i havent really cont how many days i have fast but i think it a week...heck care la..as long i can fast dat good enuff...lol...ok..write somemore ltr...now tired n sleepy...gd nitez

hehehehe

2004-10-22T20:29:00.000+08:00

i dint noe dat reconfiguring the background is easy...ok..maybe im new to HTML..but i did some work on it few yrs back..onli if i can remeber wat im suppose to do...hell...few days of fasting mth has pass n i didnt count...couldnt be bothered abt counting anyways...just want to get it thru in 1 piece...holiday has come n N level has pass...finally can have some peace of mind...heheheh...btw...i cant do military style blog but BLINK 182 will do coz i love dis band n some other punk band..WEEEHEEE....ok..dat all folks...write some more ltr...

wat!!!

2004-10-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

Fasting mth has start n it trintg but fun....hahaha...can see how far my endurance is...dis is the first entry...goin to do military syle for the future entries...hehehehe...MARINES..HOOYAH!!!